Ever since i was little I have made a plan, which usually includes about 10 years ahead in life! It's a curse of my OCD :) However, lately I have been feeling as though I have gone down a different path, taken different turns, decisions my 15 year old self would not have seen coming. I worry a lot about if what I am doing is best for me, if this is what will make me truly happy.
In church on Sunday my relief society president read us this story and i felt it went perfect with my life.
Welcome to Holland by Emily Perl Kingsley.
Most people go through life with wonderful exciting plans they hope to fulfill, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting. After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy." But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay. The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place. So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met. It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts. But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.
The plans and decisions I have made were what I thought was my Plan A, but I currently feel as though I am living plan B. However, because I have turned to my Heavenly Father and prayed about the paths I should be taking- It's wonderful to know that all along my plan B has his been his plan A.
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They had this same story outside the door of NICU when Braxten was born (some of it was reworded to fit parentint obviously :) I love it. I have it in my baby journal I made for him, life is so crazy... but of course at the end of the day you realize you wouldn't want it any other way! Love you
ReplyDeleteYa, I have heard it reworded for parents who have children with disabilities!! I promise, I am coming to visit you this summer!!!!!!!!!
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